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Who do you want to be when you grow up?

Posted on May 13th, 2009 by JilliansGarden : The Garden Grows... JilliansGarden
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for May 13, 2009:

I dont know ....so far in 58 years of this life..daughter, wife, mother, student (still),singer, artist, jewelry designer, nurse, grandmother,retiree,business owner,athlete,property owner,traveller,meditation student,reiki practitioner,fitness trainer,friend,reader,writer,volunteer....and so much more to do I hope I am never done...  Who knows!! 
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What does your highest self want for you today?

Posted on Apr 26th, 2009 by JilliansGarden : The Garden Grows... JilliansGarden
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for April 26, 2009:

Let it Be....There is much movement in my life right now...my father's death three weeks ago from Alzheimers.  I have missed him for a long time.  We lost him twice...but he is now whole and safe, no longer frightened,  confused and isolated...he was ready and that gives me peace.

 My daughters and their families (my grandbabies)  are moving to other states this month....

I retired from a nursing career...

I get sad at times and that is just  the way it is... This is normal for what 'is' in my life right now...loss is painful... I believe I need to go with it rather than try to deny or fight it.    I am not super strong and noble or particularly enlightened and all of  this hurts on different levels at different times... but I must accept...it is what it is right now...right now.  

What has suprised me though is that  I also have a great sense of peace as well.  A quietness that wasnt there before.  A Release of sorts... 

Through all of this transitioning I have been given a huge space in my life...yet not  a void!!  There is a profound difference.  It is a huge good space.  There is forward movement....I know it to be true.  Something is ahead for me to do.  

MY HIGHER SELF wants me to know that Change is always happening and we can count on that and it does work for us.   Life unfolds as it should...and  I will have sad moments, cry, miss everyone and that is ok..but I am not afraid...that is the difference!  

My Higher Self wants me to do the best that I can today...whatever form that takes...and know that I am ok. 

I am grateful for my husband, who is doing a great thing by just being here

I am grateful for my daughters and our relationship together...grateful for their opportunity right now in this economic downturn.  I am proud that they are taking this leap of faith and going for it...and glad it is falling into place for them as well.  I am grateful they have good husbands, I couldnt have handpicked better men.  My grandaughters are my JOY...that will not stop ever! 

I am grateful for Skype so I can see them online every day. 

I am grateful for Frequent Flyer Miles!!!  

I am grateful for camera cell phones. My Dad had a great day recently and I have a nice picture of him...his last picture and its with a smile and recognition.  

I am grateful for good friends...who have not smothered me right now, but have uplifted me by being normal...just themselves... and pulled back when they sensed it was the right thing to do, but were never very far away.  I would do that in a heartbeat for them as well.  

I am grateful for my doggie, Franklin, who is 25 pounds of comfort.  

My Higher Self is telling me to just let it be..not to strive for a certain standard and timeframe for healing. 

 Whatever I feel at a certain moment is simply how I feel at a certain moment... it is already ok..let go...there is something good coming.  Be Well. 


































































































 


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